Another broken heart

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 21:44:15 GMT

I'm moving to washington on friday.
I'm super excited.I got a one way ticket.
So goodbye arizona!I think it's going to be
really good for me.I need a change.
Sarah and I are going to party it up.
Meleah used to live there so we are meeting
up with her friend Devin and some of his friends.
They seem like really fun,good,loyal people.
Those are the kind of people I need.
I still need to finish packing.I'm not even close to being
done.Oh yeah and I got the fucking cutest dog ever.Her name is Paisley and yeah
I love her.Well I guess that's all.

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 23:59:27 GMT

I have the best sister ever.I love her dearly.She's awesome.She got me roses.Cause I've been
sad.I'm going over to meleah's tonight to watch the movie kids and to get drunk hopefully.
Today has been way better than the last couple days.I hope it stays this way.
<3

ps
this song is amazing
I want someone to sing it to me

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 18:56:14 GMT

if love was a door,
I've slammed it in your face,
ran out to the balcony,
and jumped to the ground,
I've sponged the place in gasoline,
before igniting the foundation,
and burning it to ashes,
if love was a plane,
then I've flown it to the highest point,
but then let it come crashing down to the earth,
fasten your seatbelts, were going down,
were going down now,
if love was a child,
then I've scolded him to no end,
he's been filled with nothing inside,
until the day when bullets filled the emptiness inside him,
from his own gun,
from his own hands,
love become the pill that stopped his shakes,
he's never crossed a man's face so hard,
love became the pill that put him under,
he's never scratched a man's heart so deep,
if love was born to die,
then I've buried it six feet under,
if you take the one,
and minus him bye two,
you got the end of the world,
before it's even begun,
although I've ed his heart,
I can revive him with my own two hands

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 00:50:29 GMT

last night was fun
tonight will be fun.
I like this.
I'm sorry I suck at updating.

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 22:07:20 GMT

So tonight is going to consist of
-P.F Changs mmm
-Mill Ave.
-movie night
-photobooth pictures
-alcohol
Tonight is going to be so much fun.I'm excited.Last night I babysat the cutest kid ever named Parker.He's adorable
likes to dance to the beatles.I had fun.Me and sarah actually babysat him and we hung out with Meleah.
I like her a lot.She's crazy funny and you can have any conversation with her.She's very opinionated and I like
that. So things have been good.The only bummer in my life right now is that sarah's license is suspended.So I have to drive her everywhere.I don't really mind it that much.Cause I love her.She just went to court today and I'm worried
for her.Because I don't want to her to go jail for a long time.I love her and what happens to her effects me.So anyways.
I haven't took a shower yet.I feel like such a bum.It's 3:00 in the afternoon and I haven't even got my day
started that's sad.So I think I'm going to do that.

p.s my parents are going to New Orleans
and won't be back until next wednesday
Party at my house.

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 06:41:02 GMT

So want to hear the lamest thing ever.
I FUCKING MISSED THE FAINT
They just got done playing when we got
there.Fucking lame.I saw Bright Eyes though.
It was still really disappointing.Oh well.
I managed to still have a really fun night.
Patrick is awesome and yeah I love him.
I really wish I was high right now.
I love the feeling.For the past 3 days that's
how I've been feeling and now I'm not.
It's kind of a bummer.I need to do more productive things with my time though.
Like finding a job and fucking realizing what I want to do with the
rest of my life.
:[

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 18:47:03 GMT

I'm going to BRIGHT EYESandTHE FAINT!!!
I got my tickets from Sefe.He gave me two tickets for $30.
I'm excited.It's his birthday today.I feel bad.Cause we don't hang out much anymore.We used to be so close.
I'm still going to get him something cause he's awesome.Okay well time to go to lunch with Patrick♥

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 00:15:29 GMT

I had a good weekend.
the end

if you think this is about you it's not

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 02:34:37 GMT

Today has been really weird.I don't like the mood I've been in.
I've been worrying about people I shouldn't and I need to stop.
I wish some people weren't selfish and thought of others.I'm too damn nice.
From now on I'm going to change and be more positive and you know what I have to say to
the people I cared about and helped out whenever they needed help.
Who don't care about me and I guess never really did
this

I want to go out tonight and have fun.I don't want to sit home and dwell on things.
Other than the mood I've been in today things have been good.
I saw star wars last night with patrick.We just made fun of how chessy it was.It was
awesome.I stayed the night at patrick's and it was a fun time.I really love him with all my
heart and I hate it when I fight with him.Because basically he is the only one I can count on to be there besides my family.He means a lot to me.He really does.Okay well now I'm going to go see him
peace out niggas

oh yeah I dyed my hair once again.
I just can't stop!
pictures soon.

Wed, 25 May 2005 18:10:07 GMT

I'M GRADUATING TONIGHT! FUCK YEAH BITCHES

Fri, 06 May 2005 21:08:38 GMT

Today was fun.We had our little art show so me and jeff looked at all the art and then left and got starbucks.He got me a free drink.It was sweeeeeet and then we went back to school and brittany calls me and says where are you I got you jamba juice.My friends are nice.I'm almost done with school.It's so exciting yet depressing to think that I won't see some people anymore. But that's life..I think I might be putting some dark brown in my hair this weekend it will be super cute.Um..tonight me and patrick are going out.That should be fun.I want to see house of wax.I also going to be looking for a new job this weekend and seriously do it because I'm lazy and haven't already.That's pretty much all that's been going on in my life.Other than some family issues.

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 22:17:31 GMT

I decided what I plan on doing after highschool.
I'm going to go to the art institute of seattle where I will be
doing fashion design.I'm actually really excited.That's what I wanted to
do for a long time and I want to move to washington so it looks like it's perfect for me.
I was going to go into cosmetology but I don't know if that's for me.I think that a hair stylist would be a
fun profession but I really want to do fashion design.So anyways.I'm almost done with highschool and
it's kind of crazy to think that I won't be in school anymore (well highschool) but I'm really excited to
get out of there and start my life.My senior year has been fucking stressful and I just want to be done with
it.Prom is next saturday and I really want to go but then I don't because I don't want to spend a fortune on
a dress and all that shit and then be disappointed.Like I was last year.Prom is just like any other dance just
you get really dressed up.So it's a bunch of kids dressed up dancing to rap.Lame.But I still want to go.I'm weird.
Uh....I really need a new job bad.I should be looking for one.I think I'm going to work at starbucks.That would be fun.
I think I'm going to go start looking for a new job right now.Bye.

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 22:05:21 GMT

I figured out what my next tattoo is going to be and it's going to be beautiful.

drama everyone loves it

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 23:12:03 GMT

So I quit my job on saturday.Goodbye Harkins.
Everyone there can kiss my ass(minus a few) they do not know how to run
a business.Maybe because they have 18 and 20 year olds on a power trip.
I'm happy now though I can find a real job.
I guess I found out some people's true sides and it's scary.
I haven't been doing much lately just been going to school
and getting everything I need to have done so I can graduate.
Fun stuff only not.Yeah that's my life

and to top it off
me and patrick aren't dating.

the only good thing in my life right now is that
I'm going to see bright eyes/the faint .
I got my ticket today.It's going to be awesome.

fuck all yall
bye.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 21:27:31 GMT

I'm really bummed that I'm missing underoath tonight.
I wanted to go.fucking work ruins everything.
But I do get paid tomorrow.Yeah school was school
today.I want to get outta of that place soooo bad.
I can't wait.That's if I pass my fucking humanities class.
That class is kicking my ass.I really don't like it too much right
now.My mom just called me to tell me to pray for my sister.
Who got an extreme dui and might be facing jail time.
It sucks.Yeah anyways.I'm kinda annoyed today.I don't even really know why.
I'm just not feeling today.Okay well that's all byeeee.

brittany call me if you need me I'm glad you're okay♥

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 20:47:36 GMT

yeah

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 04:48:40 GMT

I dyed my hair blond
awesome

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 20:49:01 GMT

Today officially blows
because I have to get my car fixed and probably wait for 8 hours!
I also have to go to work at 5.I'm looking for a new job asap.
I can't stand working there anymore and it's sad because I haven't been
working there that long.Well time to go get my car fixed.

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 21:18:25 GMT

so yeah I never update.
Nothing has been going on lately.I got paid yesterday hung out with patrick♥ went and saw the jacket for free.
It sucked.I don't recommend it.Um...then we picked up cory and got alcohol and watched movies.It was fun.
I have to work today.Don't really feel like going but whatever.Lauren and me went shopping yesterday.
It was fun.Yeah that's really i have to say right now.

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 01:24:02 GMT

Today has been really good.
I finally got my fucking braces off.I'm so happy.
I got a cute ass haircut.Got a cute new outfit.
Me and lauren went to taco bell and shirts n things today.She got a cute shirt. I love lauren she's awesome.
Yeahhhhh.my family is acting really crazy.I think my sister is on
crack.She's funny though anyways...yeah I hate working at harkins.
I fell while I was in concession because it was wet everywhere and it's like ice skating back
there.Hahaha most embarrassing thing ever.I was getting this dumb lady a refill of popcorn and totally fell
on my back and didn't get up to get the lady her popcorn I just laid on the floor and made chelsae do it.
Hahah it's kinda funny.Anyways...everyone at my work thinks I'm a "hardcore gangster" I guess because of my tattoo
and because I have brass knuckles.And this kid Ian is afraid of me because of that?hahah too funny.I like pretty much everyone I work with though.They're all cool.Um...yeah I think that's all that's been going on.
I'll have pictures in my next entry.
peaceeeeee

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 22:47:28 GMT

Last night was modest mouse.
+'s
+seeing my favorite band with the best guy ever
+ playing my favorite song
+having a great time
-'s
-stupid drunk people dancing
-$25 shirts
-lame security guards
-bros EVERYWHERE

Yeah I still managed to have a great time.I love modest mouse and I love patrick for taking me
he's awesome.The show was over so early it was over at like 10.Crazy stuff.
So I went over to patrick's smoked and watched family guy.Then we drove to my house
and he spent the night.I had a really fun night.Patrick makes me really happy.
I'm really bumming because I have to go to work in 45 minutes.Oh well.
that's all byeeeeee

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 21:10:24 GMT

modest mouse is tonight!!I'm so excited.I'm going to smoke before
we go and it'll be amazing.:]
Last night could only be described in one word PERFECT
Patrick made me dinner and we had a little picnic in his living room
and the night was just perfect.I love him a lot.He got me roses.
They're beautiful.I have to go up to checker to change the oil in my car.
It's going to be loads of fun.I really don't want to go do that right now but whatever
Tonight is going to be so much I can't wait.

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 22:10:32 GMT

♥happy valentine's day everyone♥
Tonight is going to be fun.
I'm excited.I'm getting my hair cut and colored this
weekend it's going to be hot.I'm also excited about that.

I wish I was going to bright eyes :[

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 20:25:50 GMT

so yeah I worked all weekend.It was fun.
Except on sunday cause I was sick.But whatever.
I had a good day at school.I just can't wait to graduate
though.Seriously I can't wait till I get outta there and I
don't have to deal with all the annoying people that go there.
(Minus a few)I'm so excited to go to fucking modest mouse
I can't wait it's going to be the best night of my life..well no not really
but it'll be close.I'm going to go picture crazy.Um tomorrow I'm going to Walls
of Jericho,bury your dead and full blown chaos.It's going to be amazing.I'm in a really
good mood for once.I think it's because I have a job and I'll finally have money to blow on whatever
I want.Yeah I think that's it.I'm going to band practice today.That should be fun.

I'm sick of being taken for granted and being treated like shit and if you
think I'm talking to you I am.
I don't want people to pretend like I'm a "bestfriend" or people to pretend they
actually care about my feelings.I was there for you whenever you needed me. When your shitty
friends made you upset and cry I was there.But we have "grown apart" and I'm fine with that.
I just don't want to deal with it anymore.So I'm offically DONE.I was fine without you before I'm sure I can do it
again.

my lovely weekend

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 23:02:16 GMT

I work all weekend!
friday 4-10:30
saturday 6-11:30
sunday 3:30- 8
yes yes life is great.That's a huge bummer.
But anyways...nothing has been going on. I saw hide and seek last weekend and aliens of the deep.
Aliens of the deep was awesome hide and seek wasn't.Sarah's birthday was yesterday we spent $140 dollars on dinner.
Crrrazy stuff.Yeah I've just been hanging out with the boyfriend <3.
I really want to see boogyman tomorrow.But I have to work all weekend so I guess that won't be happening.
Oh well.